since i have a mid-term hanging over my head, i have decided that the best way to spend my time would be reading a book entirely unrelated to school. this would be a book by james frey called A Million Little Pieces. very free writing, run on thoughts, sometimes lacking coherence, the opposite of thoughtful prose, a six week journey through his time in rehab. and yet, very very moving. and, despite the sometimes graphic language, and the honesty, i still...still...have a hard time really understanding what it means to be in withdrawal. however, it did redefine how i view addiction and social pressure and acceptability. and i cannot begin to write on how impressed i was with his own sense of responsibility. he was determined to not be a victim, even if in some cases he was, and i think that that is probably what gave him the strength to stay sober. that if it was his decision to do the terrible things he did, then it can be his own decision to not do those things. if it was not within his own control to start, than how could it be within his own control to stop?

now that that little distraction is done, i can turn my head to more degree earning pursuits. that would be a mid term, due thursday, and another mid term, due next tuesday. somewhere in there i am going to enjoy jeff's first hockey game and some time with jarrod, when, wonderfully, neither of us is sick.

Of course, George Martin has released a new book. When i realized it was out today, this morning, i started putting on my coat to go buy it. at which point i did realize that i could NOT go buy it. being that i had two classes, a group report, and a midterm due. so sometimes i am an idiot. but those waves usually pass within a moment or two. thankfully.